How come I can't stay sober?
10.06.2025 03:03
Being present is what we addicts escape from. 🥂
Yes the life an addict can be very difficult too but any robot or zombie can do the task.
it’s tiring being present.
Because the daily struggles of life sober seems do-able. Or at least not life threatening so it’s entirely possible. But it requires presence. It requires a structure because even if you are a free spirit who couldn’t care about taxes or insurance or the latest trending chemical peel, you have to be present enough to know when to eat, sleep, bath, etc… you have to be present enough to judge the car coming down the road. Do you have enough tie to walk across? Well it seems trivial but at the end of each day these are the things that our body feels when we get into bed.
the robot and zombi don’t even bother to think about the task again. We are just the average human and we will think about it and talk about it and try improve it and it is all so fucking draining.